Sunday, January 28, 2007
we will run and not grow weary
for our Lord will give us strength
we will fly like the eagle
we will rise againthis has been another confusing week. dunno why lifes getting so complicated now. maybe im the one complicating things. i dunno. anyway. when life is too simple i complain its dull and boring. when life gets complicated i run away and hide and wish it would uncomplicate itself. what is it with humans and the funny thing called satisfaction?
im glad the SAT is over. even if i did screw up. at least its over. no more bringing heavy practice tests to school, no more tearing the tests late at night, no more chionging tests in the lib after school. wow my life sounds quite free now. lol. thanks for giving me my life back man. haha.
i think its time to find myself. seriously. stop snickering! its not funny. in the rushing here and there and doing stuff its so easy to lose yourself and your sense of who you really are. and you end up being influenced by others whose sense of self is stronger than yours so much so that they can affect you when u cant find ur self anymore. really! i dunno if im e only one in this whole wide world who feels that this can happen but yeah, i think that it can happen and i think it happens alot with me. maybe my sense of self is not that strong. but i didnt realise that it was happening until the dec holidays last year. it was then that i had time to relax, just mope ard at home and just be me for awhile. and it was only then that i realised how different i can be at times. so this year i've been reminding myself [sometimes unsuccessfully tho] to remain true to myself. to do what i wanna do, when i wanna do and dont compromise too much just to make pple happy. its more impt to be happy yourself. because u can never finish making pple happy. but of course that doesnt give anyone any excuse to become grumpy, selfcentered and extremely selfish. everything in balance, my dears. haha.
okay so thats the end of the lesson of life today. lol. im off now. its monday again tmr! lets hope this week is a better week! cheers.
a star fell from the sky;
10:51 PM
Monday, January 22, 2007
what doesnt destroy you makes you stronger.im strongstrongstrongstrongstrongstrongstrongstrongstrongstrongstrongstrongstrongstrongstrongstrongstrongstrongstrongstrongstrongstrongstrongstrongstrongstrongstrong.
a star fell from the sky;
5:07 PM
Saturday, January 20, 2007
i feel cheated. cheated of my feelings!
angry.
pekcek.
i shall resolve not to be so silly next time and stick to my resolution. stick. stick. stick. STICK!!
argh.
i hate myself at times like these. how come they seem to be occurring so frequently nowadays.
argh.
a star fell from the sky;
12:10 AM
Friday, January 12, 2007
wow this has been such a confusing week. so many things have happened and im getting super forgetful. haha but none of the things have been happening to me so i've just been giving my opinion judged from my birds eye view high up on the bystanders stand. and i can hardly rmbr stuff like what i ate ytd and things like that. must be the after effect of rushing around and having too many things on my mind. lol. anyway today was a super tiring day. i think we can expect all our fridays to be like that from now on. first in the morning i had to wait half an hr for 48 to come and take me to school! i reached the bus stop at 7 and the bus only came at 730! super pekchek. so i was late expected. but surprisingly, nobody caught us. the side gate was even open and a teacher or someone was waiting there to tell us to go to the hall. turned out there was some prize presentation for orientation or sth? well i missed most of it anyway. haha den they tried to show us some video clip. first there wasnt any sound so they repeated the clip. there still wasnt any sound den suddenly the 'computer preparing to hibernate' screen came up. the whole hall burst into laughter. lol. anyway after assembly and 2 periods of tutorials we had pe! haha we ran 4 rounds den played netball! haha started to learn netball more like. den after pe caroline and i wanted to practice shooting. haha but in the end we played a sorta netball cum captains ball with some of the guys. we played until super late den had to rush up to v41 for econs. after that had to change and rush down to lt5 for maths lecture and rush back up to v41 for phy tutorial. climbing up and down so many times is really good trg for our legs man. haha and somemore after pe! waaaa. can die.
haha okay im going off to enjoy the rest of my fri night. take care everybody and i'll cya on monday!
Iris
-Goo Goo Dolls
And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight
And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive
And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
a star fell from the sky;
7:04 PM
Thursday, January 11, 2007
Move Along
-All American Rejects
Go ahead as you waste your days with thinking
When you fall everyone sins
Another day and you've had your fill of sinking
With the life held in your
Hands are shaking cold
These hands are meant to hold
Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along
Move along
So a day when you've lost yourself completely
Could be a night when your life ends
Such a heart that will lead you to deceiving
All the pain held in your
Hands are shaking cold
Your hands are mine to hold
Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)
When everything is wrong we move along
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)
When everything is wrong, we move along
Along, along, along
When all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
[x3]
(Move along)
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)
Right back what is wrong
We move alongisnt this song appropriate? haha hang in there everybody! its only been the first week of sch and we still have a long way to go! but just hang in there and we'll reach there soon and enjoy the fruits of our labour :)
a star fell from the sky;
10:37 PM
Sunday, January 07, 2007
my third post of 2007! haha today was a busy busy day. haha actually i spent the whole day staring at the com but it feels v v v v v v busy :) well at least we finished what we have to do for ssef. now they just have to shortlist us. haha if they dont all our efforts will be wasted! and i wld have wasted my whole day today. haiz. ohwell. so its back to school again tmr. haha feels like ive nv left sch even tho we've only been back for 3 days. and not even had any proper lesson since last yr. but the vvvvv familiar feeling is coming back to me. haha i think its the vj feeling coz i nv had it when i was back in sn. its that kinda thought hanging ard at the back of ur brain all the time. the i-gotta-study-coz-everybody-else-is-so-scary kinda feeling. dunno why but ive only become so familiar with it in vj. and somemore because im not the kind that gets pushed to do work by this kinda thing, i just let the thing hang at the back of my mind all the time. and it kinda makes me cannot enjoy what im doing now even tho at the same time i wld rather not be doing anything else. haha im starting to sound like ignatius now. with all the 'things' in my sentence. lol nvm. but anyway the feelings coming back. its so irritating la. makes me cannot enjoy whatever else im doing. but i have to admit if i didnt have this feeling i wld prob be doing even less work den now. wonder if im e only one in the whole of vj who gets this feeling? haha aiya doesnt matter la.
rmbr.
what doesnt destroy you makes you stronger. my eternal quote. haha yayy im strong.
okay im going. stay strong everybody!
a star fell from the sky;
5:42 PM
Thursday, January 04, 2007
my second post of 2007! haha these two days of sch have been good. nice and slack. just the way i like it. hahaha. ytd had chem tutorial but today didnt have any lessons at all. but ytd was damn funny. coz we didnt have cards and e security guard wldnt let us leave sch so we really used the idea that ignatius they all came up with last time. yes, the ice cream sticks idea! we really wrote everything on the sticks and used them to play. haha we looked damn weird with the ice cream sticks and it was super hard to play! esp the shuffling man. wa if anybody wash it'll be gg alr la. gotta shuffle all over again. haha but today we didnt have to use the sticks alr coz anghong brought cards! it was a nicccee improvement man. bridge these few days have been fun. haha and i like our new timetable! we end pretty early most days! what a difference from last year. haha maybe i'll be home in time for dinner now. lol.
okay im off. take care everybody!
Days Go By
-Keith Urban
I'm changing lanes
I'm talking on the phone
I'm drivin' way to fast
And the interstate's jammed with
Gunners like me afraid of coming in last
But somewhere in the race we run
We're coming undone
Days go by
I can feel 'em flying
Like a hand out the window in the wind as the cars go by
It's all we've been given
So you better start livin' right now
'Cause days go by
Out on the roof just the other night
I watched the world flash by
Headlights, taillights running through a river of neon signs
But somewhere in the rush I felt
We're losing ourselves
Days go by
I can feel 'em flying
Like a hand out the window in the wind as the cars go by
It's all we've been given
So you better start livin' right now
'Cause days go by
We think about tomorrow then it slips away
We talk about forever but we've only got today
And the days go by
I can feel 'em flying
Like a hand out the window
As the cars go by
It's all we've been given
So you better start livin'
You better start livin'
Better start livin' right now
Cause days go by
I can feel like 'em flying
Like a hand out the window in the wind as the cars go by
It's all we've been given
So you better start livin' right now
Cause days go by
These days go by
So take 'em by the hand
They're yours and mine
Take 'em by the hand
And live your life
Take 'em by the hand
Don't let 'em all fly by
Come on, Come on now
Don't you know the days go by
a star fell from the sky;
8:57 PM
Tuesday, January 02, 2007
HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL! abit late, i know but nevertheless better late than never! heres to a great year ahead! and of course, a year filled with much more studying ;) cheers.
now while we're in the retrospective mood as we usher in 2007, as we reminisce [spelling!?] our past times, dont forget to rmbr to look to better times to come!
what doesnt destroy you makes you stronger. somehow this phrase is always apt in describing practically anything. really. it can be applied to any scenario. a rocky marriage, a person hurt, really anything. haha lets all rmbr this great phrase and repeat it to ourselves throughout the year. haha its my 2007 phrase of the year. lol.
okay thats all for today. quite a random post. haha to all vj folks...see ya in sch tmr!
take care everybody! lets end with this beautiful song
All Good Things (Come To An End)
-Nelly Furtado
Dogs were whistling a new tune
Barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could die
Honestly what will become of me
I don't like reality
It's way too clear to me
But really life is daily
We are what we don't see
We missed everything daydreaming
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Travelling I always stop at exits
Wondering if I'll stay
Young and restless
Living this way I stress less
I want to pull away when the dream dies
The pain sets it and I don't cry
I only feel gravity and I wonder why
And the sun was wondering if it should stay away for a day until the feeling went away
And the clouds were dropping and the...
The rain forgot how to bring salvation
The dogs were whistling a new tune barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could die
a star fell from the sky;
6:07 PM
